Thursday, March 31, 2011


As I have come to slowly realize, that once I have lost what I hold dear, literally everything, I have gained eternity. A sort of infinity so to speak. With that in mind, I started my Night, and as Night persists, while life carries on I shall forever delve into insanity a little bit more. From what I have experienced this eve and now dawn is upon my unrested body. I think of a joke first thing, if there is no rest for the wicked, then I am Voldemort. I giggle to myself. Straight away my mind turns to a serious note, I feel neither life nor death shall bring me closer to truth. So do not disturb these bones, please. Perhaps that's what should be on my tombstone.

Maybe death and life are nothing more then perceptions amongst a world powered by nature and nature is quite far from our human logic. Don't get me wrong, I am not against it nor chaos, these Nights are made for chaos and insanity. In a way the only branch I have left to feeling, for pleasure, to any spiritual existence I once held dear. I grow tired of the Saviour, I don't want to be saved, no, I just wanna be free. The two are separable and if it is all perception, what am I being saved from? my own self? I dig me.

Now my morning begins, warm cup of joe and a fag in my mouth. Stepping outside in my pea-coat, I allow the dew to settle on me before I begin any hasty movements. Taking a seat as if I am forming a piece of the stone that rests under my ass, my body never truly settles. I decide it is time to light up, each movement feels quite cool and crisp. I can't feel the strains I endured from the Night before. As I stare at the dew I think of all the girls I once loved, Green comes to mind, if people are like rain, I would be drizzle and they would be hurricanes. I mean, that's what seems so exotic about it. The flare, mystery, an unknown element that grasps the attention of any onlooker or passerby. The sought adventure, what's more interesting then something beyond understanding? All this whilst the blinders slowly crack open, freeing the once sheltered eyes. Seeing a sun anew, as if stars never existed. All additives to the Night, an extension of the existentialists existence.

My coffee's bloody cold... my square isn't quite finished. I wonder if anyone is up quite yet. I shan't wake them. Can't believe it's 7 in the morn, my obscenely tired body hit the mattress only 2 hours ago. And already my blood is pumping, heart is racing, my leg is hopping at a considerable rate. That's good I suppose, means this body hasn't objected to the Night I have grown into.

Lost in thought as always, I was startled by a loud bang behind me. To my surprise it was May, I quite fancied her. She was a great girl, but a hurricane. She sat right next to me, without question took a smoke and a sip of cold brewed coffee I had. Standing May briskly went inside and freshened it up handing it to me, "Here man, no use having a chilled cup of coffee on such a chilly morning."

"Thanks, amiga. Everyone still sleepn'?"
"umm..." she says while looking back at the door, "not sure, I was hoping the bang of that door would wake their asses up." she started to light her cigarette. I don't know what it is but, watching her smoke makes me want to smoke. It looks like it's her first one every time. Also, watching her smoke is of interest to me, no idea why, just is. I looked over at her smirking, "It's about damn time," I respond as I pull out another stick from the pack, "I'm hungry, May." I liked to say her name, there was something eloquent about it, a name with class.

"Ya man, how did you sleep last night?" I had been awaiting that question, so I can make room for my joke. So I got ready to re-quip, "Well if rest is truly for the wicked, then I my friend, am Voldemort." from behind us a gasp came, we both had turned, Mika was in the doorway, "He-who-should-not-be-named! my gawd..." as she laughed. We all began to chuckle. "Let me grab my jacket." she continued.

"Did you sleep well, man?" she moved her neck around, "Not quite well as I had hoped, just a bit stiff." she took a drag, "Getting better with every puff though." Which made me smirk. Mika had made her way outside, "mind if I have one of those?"
"Not at all." may and I stated in unison. Quickly and hastily I follwed it up with, "Jinx! You owe me a coke."
"DAMMIT!" she exclaimed. Mika was laughing as she tried to light up, having a deal of trouble as it was jumping around due her laughter. "Dude, I didn't even notice you open the door." I mentioned. She finally got her cig lit, "that's right bitches, ninja skills."

May snickered and slyly rebuked, "Ya, something like that, ya creeper." Mika frowned, trying to keep her reaction serious, "You don't mean that."
"aww... let me hugs you!" may flung her arms open, "No way, fuck you man!" exasperated Mika. Pushing the embrace away with one arm until finally a loving bear hug occurred. Events like this happened frequently between them, but always for a good laugh. They were adorable.

As only an onlooker, I commentated, "isn't that just the cutest damned thing I ever did see." Taking a sip of my coffee, adding a southern twang, "Good Golly Gee Wilikers."
"Shut up, you know you love it." Mika exclaimed as they both swung down to share the love my way. Making sure I don't spill my coffee or burn anyone with my smoke, entrapped on both sides, "Oh yes, how would I survive without this affection? I'd die I say, I'd die."

May started to stand, "I'm gonna go get ready. Then wake up Diana." I finish puffing on my fag, "Go for it, ma'am."

Mika hands her cigarette over, "Could you hold this, I need to use the restroom." I grab it, "Thanks, man." They both head inside, I make note that her smoke is in my right hand, while my smoke is in the left. Not that it really matters anyhow. Share and share alike I say. My mind wanders back to the dew upon the grass, thinking about how I am the only male here. I don't mind it in the least, most the time I appreciate it. Though they're hurricanes, the exception is Mika, who is more like myself. In the areas of love, her and I have a certain connection of understanding. I mean, still have similarity to May and Diana, just in different areas...

Damn, my butt is freezing cold. So I stood up and leaned my back against the house. It's also getting quite bright outside, I exchange my thick rimmed glasses with similar sunglasses. I feel like Dylan. On that note, I take a long methodical drag staring into the sunlight. Today is not where I saw myself a year ago, but I don't know where else I wish to be. Anyhow as Douglas said, "I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be."

Mika sauntered back out leaning across from me, I relight her square, it had gone out. "Thanks darlin'.", she was putting her sunglasses on. She was a ravishing gal, so caring and loving. I just absolutely love her mussed up hair, it's amazing. I wish I had it, but couldn't pull it off nearly as well."No worries, ma'am. Now, how did you sleep?"

In the sunlight, the peace before she answered, I wonder, how did I get so luck? Surrounded by beautiful people both inside and out. I question this oft. Moving her back about, "Hmm, I had a good night. I never really sleep."
"So, you feeln' alright?", bending over, putting out my fag in the dirt.
Laughingly responds, "Tired.", blowing out smoke over her shoulder. She looked at the bright red glow ashing the cig. She seemed a tad distracted. Out of curiosity I ask, "What happens to be passing through those thoughts of yours?"

Pulling her gaze up towards me, crushing the glowing ember, "Huh? oh, nothin'. Let's get to the coffee shoppe." Pondering if that's the truth or not, I look down at my cold mug, "Ya, lez go.", meandering back inside. Starting to yell on entering, "Diana! Diana! Diana! Wake up!" Her small voice echos back, "I'm up already." So I take a seat on the couch and switch glasses again.

Mika heads back to the other end of the house, assuming to pack up.
May is sitting on the kitchen counter, I can see half of her from the door way. Most likely on her phone catching up on conversations.
Diana was getting ready to leave.

Which reminds me, I haven't checked my phone since I went outside. I don't expect to have anything new. The main posse is here already, oh, it was in between the couch cushions. Surprisingly I have new messages, both from the same person. Forgetting the fact I have been documenting my Night by sending pictures with commentary to a friend far away. Just so they feel more in touch with life here. To him, at times, this is a whole new reality. It could be, considering my brighter times prior in life. His messages read, "OH! New people I don't know and a dog, can we turn that dog a battle puppy?" and "Her face is very blurry, you should work on your photo skills... or is is she a suspect in a crime and her identity is secret? I hope for number 2." Chuckling at such responses. I write back, "Yes, we shall make him a battle puppy. Send me some drawings with the supplies needed. Yes, she is a suspect. We keep her well hidden and with a generator blurring her face constantly.", clicking send.

Tossing my leash to society aside, I decide to close my eyes and rest for a moment. Leaning my head back, only hoping for a moment of shut eye. I fell asleep. Next thing I knew was Mays voice, "Hey man, wake up. Coffee time." Groggily rubbing my eyes under crooked glasses, enforcing my weight into a standing position. We head out.

You said, "Damn be this wind is still movin' on in to the bones and the bed of my soul."

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Over burdened soul.

Why can't I breathe? The air feels heavier all the sudden and my feet drag with each step. No longer light as if filled with helium. My soul over burdened with so much turmoil. Either I've cast many chains and I've grown tired or lacking vision I've been dragging and adding even more chains. There is something you must know, my dear friends... there is hope for you, I promise. But it's far too late for me.

The bluebird can sing, but I no longer hear it in my chest. The ole crow's soul is pouring through and I'm no fish that can climb trees. Just swimming on along down the stream.

These responses grow sluggish, the time goes faster to talk myself out of my own home, the hope for tomorrow grows dim and I just wonder, what happened to all that hope I once had?

Friday, March 4, 2011

Idea 1 - Girls like nerds.

Character walks in the house, hair wet and you can see rain outside. Girl is sitting playing playstation. Without looking back, "hey, what's going on?"

"Jesse Eisenberg, James Franc, Adam Brody, Simon Pegg, Joseph Gordon-Levitt,Jay Baruchel, Jason Schwartzman, Zachary Quinto, and last but not least Michael Cera! That's my problem."

"Why?", you can see metal gear solid on in the background. Next to the tv is a dreamcast with a hello kitty island adventure video game poster.

"They create lies! Nerds are sexy my skinny, spider-man undied, odd-scar-form lightsaber-dueling, pale white ass..."

"hmm... maybe you shouldn't start the conversation off with, "Hello my name is Kris, I spent the morning playing hello kitty on my dreamcast because I have an NES emulator. I did this after learning the battle music for final fantasy VII on my guitar and trading pokemon with my female roommate, who was still in her world of warcraft attire."

Idea 2 - I'm worried about you... hipstervention

"Kris, I'm worried about you... I found this in your bag."
"Those american spirits are someone else's. I'm holding it for a friend, ya! A friend!"
"and the PBR under your bed, the beard under that hanker-chief, all those plaid button up shirts, the hoodies, tight jeans and converse in the back of your closet?"
crying, "I just like it, okay!?"
"Also, I found a copy of the hangover."
crying sobs, "I have a problem!"
"That's the first step. Here, put on this star wars t-shirt... it'll help."

Idea 3 - Hipstervention pt. II

sittn' on the couch, kris drinking PBR, playing video games... wearing everything described from last week except buddy holly type glasses on with on the road sittn' next to him.
The girl walks by... starring down.
Then says, "so, we're stickn' to you wearing that?"
"ya, this could be a poor decision."
"Enjoy it, I'm not drawing this anymore."


she stares...
"So, you don't care about our intervention?"
"Don't tread on me, man."
"That's original. did you get that off a peace-tea can?"
"no..." while kicking the peace-tea can out of frame.

Idea 4 - Han or Qreedo

"Greedo shot first! It's so obvious! There was a burning hole next to Han's head at the table!"
"pfft... doesn't mean he fired first!"
new character comes in, "guys... guys.. who cares?"
lasers are pulled out, guy is terrified...
"If it's life or death you'll care.." they shoot*.
a black frame that says, Later on!
"What do you mean you shot first!?"
Under the comic reads:
*This scene can be changed or edited however the creators wish. We can computer enhance a unicorn in to shoot a laser, if we so like... deal with it! Do I get millions of dollars now?

Idea 5 - The Falling

"I can't believe you've never seen Lord of the rings before, what do you think so far?"
"I think... over half of this film is falling down."
"ya, Frodo isn't good at anything besides falling over. Him and the ground have a relationship going on."
A frame of frodo falling down talking to the ground, "one day, we'll be together."
the ground responds, "Whenever you ditch Sam."

Idea 6 - The force isn't always the answer...

"What do you think happened to the people in the galactic empire after darth vader and the emperor fell? How do you think they blended in to the general public?"
"I don't know... the force?"
she stares...
"The force isn't always the answer."
tries Jedi mind trick, "The force is always the answer..."
She looks annoyed.

Idea 7 - Sin of LUST

"Did you guys watch the Oscars?" random person
"of course." lady
"we had to turn it off though." guy
"Me too, it wasn't very good." random person
"wait, it was great!" guy
"then, why'd you turn it off?" random person
"James Franco in a dress... the lust was too strong, we had to tear ourselves away before we committed a sin of epic proportions." lady
"Ya, it was hot." guy
"not sure why I visit you anymore..." random person.

Idea 8 - Natalie

the room is dark and the girl pops her head in, kris is hidden in his bed covers.
"Kris, you ok?"
"He'll never love her like I could.."
"aw, I'm sorry... who?"
"A ballet dancer. He'll never lover her like me."a
"wait, natalie portman?"
"ya.. that bastard.."
"The pain will subside soon."

Idea 9 - Religious holidays

walks into the house, Kris decorated it all in green.. the walls are now green.
"What the hell? I didn't know you were Irish."
"I'm not, my beard is... see, it's red."
"I don't really get st. patties day. What are we celebrating?"
"It's a religious holiday.. Saint Patrick and the spreading of the gospel across Ireland. The shamrock represents the holy trinity."
"oh, but were not religious."
"No, but with enough green beer I will be!"
"I'm sure that's what they had in mind."

Idea 10 - Reasons to be a rock star

(Reasons to be a rock star pt. I)
"Goodnight, my living room!" sliding on his knees towards the kitty on the couch, with a mighty axe of a guitar.
Just a kitty is watching, "Boo! Go to someone else's living room!"
Reason 1: I don't ever have to tune my guitars... the b string is such a bitch!" Shows the guitar string breaking and hitting my eye. "My eye!"
Reason 2: I have great stage presence. "No I disagree red hair girl, we aren't the worst band ever."
Reason 3: I've seen spinal tap like 100 times! "Just, turn it up to eleven! That's what they want." (you can't tell, but he's using a horrible British accent.) He's dressed up in really tight clothes like in the movie on stage. Everyone is booing.

Idea 11 - Reasons to not be a rock star

(Reasons I can't be a rock star pt. I)
"What do you mean wearing a cape on synth isn't cool?"
Reason 1: I am easily distracted. "Hey guys! I never knew we had merch!" "How'd he get back there?"
Reason 2: I get nervous and shy when a girl hits on me. (A girl is whispering in his ear) "Wait! You wanna do what!? uhh... I forgot my M&M's in the back.." "I just said he should get pizza with us..." her friend, "weirdo."
Reason 3: Finally learning an instrument would be a good start. "This is a G chord." (getting guitar lessons, from a hippie with crazy beard.) "Wait, you mean this takes both talent and hard work? Two things I don't have. Good day!"

Idea 12 - Ihop

A shot of Ihop from the outside, "I'll have... coffee and strawberry pancakes." first bubble.
"I'll have, coffee and the waffles with chicken. Warm syrup with it as well"
"Chickens and waffles, that's sounds gross and horrible for you."
"I have a brilliant idea!"
Showing a diagram of his idea... a chicken, bacon, warm syrup, ranch, waffle sandwich.
"more disgusting/horrible for the body than I thought..."
"I believe nothing this delicious could ever be bad for you."
"I feel that's minus 10 years from your life expectancy."

Idea 13 - Your Life
"Aww dude, my I wonder if anyone is lookn' for me."
"That stuff is rubbish!"
"dang man! 20 people are looking for me."
"NO WAY! I'm gonna try.", his face turns somber.
"What's wrong?"
"it deleted my account... they sent me an e-mail. Your account was deleted and removed from archives because, no one is or is willing to ever look for you. The ironic part is, enough people looked for you to warn us to keep you from our site.. so no one will ever look for you in the positive sense. signed, staff p.s. don't e-mail us back."
"now that's a burn."

Idea 14 - Military man!

Reasons I couldn't be in the military... I could be a Jedi though.
"I don't take kindly to being yelled at, by kindly... I cry."
"I.. *gasp* tried... pops." tears and sobs, bed made at 45 degrees.

I also don't like guns.
"Good work son... are you throwing rocks? Use your gun!"
"I'd rather not, don't you know I can shoot my eye out? or die... can I have a laser?"
After this, I get yelled at and well, cry again.

Then there is all that hard work and training. In which I just find ways to delegate. Typically, I would assume this ending badly.
"I'll trade you... all of my running and I'll take care of the hours of sleep you get at night. That's a good trade."
"I'm glad I haven't been given my gun yet..."
"why? Wouldn't lightsabers and lasers be way cooler!?"

Idea - 15 Dumb things I've done on dates: Movie theater edition!

Remember, when going out with a friend and twins... keep in mind which one you were sitting by.
*YAWN!* arm goes over the girls, "Wrong sister Fabio..." guys look at each other, "damn" "Damn, damn."

When buying treats, offer the girl some.
sitting down with a plethora of food. looks over, "Did you want some?"
"I thought we were sharing."
"We are on such a different realm here..."

Most of all, never bring a girl to a film who will talk through it... you'll end the night early.
"oh no, what's going to happen to her? What's that? What do you think is gonna happen? Pass the popcorn?"
"We're over... I'm moving seats."
"But why?"
"UGH! That's why!"

Idea 16 - My dream girl, literally.
''I have this dream, not like a martin luther king dream, but a dream to aspire too... like, a girl climbing through my window to romatisize me." other character,"I don't think things work out like that." me agian, "no, most likely it won't even be a burglar... just my guy friends sneaking in my bed naked. to be annoying."

Idea 17 - Best Trilogy
"ok, the tally is... 3 lord of the rings and 3 star wars... who didn't vote? Kris?"
"Ya, I decided to vote abstain. I don't like either side of this, so I put in a blank vote."
"oh... then what do you think the best trilogy would be?"
"The bourne series, of course.

Idea 18 - Calms my stomach
3 people walking down the street.
"Man, my stomach is upset... give me a peppermint." gets handed a peppermint
"Know what's odd, the smell of the woodshop, calms my stomach. It's delightful."
"Ya, the smell of fresh wood is quite calming."
The third person snickers, "ahaha fresh wood, you would like that."
"Very mature of you..."
"Thank you kindly."

Idea 19 - no rest for the wicked
"Dang, you look beat tired... how have you been resting?"
"Well, based on the amount I've gotten and if there is actually no rest for the wicked. I'm Voldemort."
"He-who-must-not-be-named!? Damn, that's off the charts wicked! AVADA KEDAVRA!" Pulls out a wand.
"wow... that's mighty cool you have a wand..."

Tuesday, March 1, 2011


I use quotes in my daily life, constantly even references I make can be a mere projections of images.

On Jane Austen's death bed her sister Cassandra asked if she needed anything, Austen replied, ''I want nothing but death."

‎"Now, now, my good man, this is no time for making enemies.", Voltaire as he was asked to renounce satan.

"I have offended God and mankind because my work did not reach the quality it should have.", Leonardo da Vinci. This one always gets me...

Hunter S. Thompson, "Let us toast to animal pleasures, to escapism, to rain on the roof and instant coffee, to unemployment insurance and library cards, to absinthe and good-hearted landlords, to music and warm bodies and contraceptives... and to the ‘good life,’ whatever it is and wherever it happens to be."

All the world's a stage,and all the men and women merely players:they have their exits and their entrances;and one man in his time plays many parts..." Shakespeare

There are these two young fish swimming along and they happen to meet an older fish swimming the other way, who nods at them and says "Morning, boys. How's the water?" And the two young fish swim on for a bit, and then eventually one of them looks over at the other and goes "What the hell is water?", David Foster Wallace

‎"You know that song 'If a body catch a body comin' through the rye'?
I'd like — ""It's 'If a body meet a body coming through the rye'!" old Phoebe said.
"It's a poem. By Robert Burns.""I know it's a poem by Robert Burns.
"She was right, though. It is "If a body meet a body coming through the rye." I didn't know it then, though."I thought it was 'If a body catch a body,'" I said "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around — nobody big, I mean — except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff — I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be. I know it's crazy." - From Catcher in the Rye

‎"I object to violence because when it appears to do good, the good is only temperary; the evil it does is permanent.", Gandhi

“Never cease loving a person, and never give up hope for him, for even the prodigal son who had fallen most low, could still be saved; the bitterest enemy and also he who was your friend could again be your friend; love that has grown cold can kindle” Kierkegaard

"The relativism which is not willing to speak about truth but only about ‘what is true for me’ is an evasion of the serious business of living. It is the mark of a tragic loss of nerve in our contemporary culture. It is a preliminary symptom of death." — Lesslie Newbigin

"the Christian story provides us with a set of lenses, not something for us to look at but to look throuugh." Newbigin

Friends applaud, the comedy is finished.~~ Ludwig van Beethoven before he died.

‎"I have just had eighteen whiskeys in a row. I do believe that is a record.", Dylan Thomas just before he died.

We are so obsessed with doing that we have no time and no imagination left for being. As a result, men are valued not for what they are but for what they do or what they have - for their usefulness. Thomas Merton

‎"All emotions, and that one[love] particularly, were abhorrent to his cold, precise but admirably balanced mind. He was, I take it, the most perfect reasoning and observing machine that the world has seen, but as a lover he would have placed himself in a false position.", Watson "the sign of four" his thoughts on Holmes.

‎"Governments show thus how successfully men can be imposed on, even impose on themselves, for their own advantage.", Thoreau

"If God's on our side he'll stop the next war..." Dylan

"A day without laughter is a day wasted."

In matters of conscience, the law of the majority has no place. Mohandas Gandhi

We are not at peace with others because we are not at peace with ourselves, and we are not at peace with ourselves because we are not at peace with God. Thomas Merton

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.", Jesus

"Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul. ", St. Augustine

"The oppressed are freed from being oppressed and the oppressors are freed from being oppressors.", Tutu

We cannot fully recover until we help the society that made us sick recover."

"When the seagulls follow the trawler, it's because they think sardines will be thrown into the sea.", Cantona

"Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici", some German fellow.

"I accept Chaos, I don't know wether or not chaos accepts me.", Dylan

"Do not act as if you were going to live ten thousand years. Death hangs over you. While you live, while it is in your power, be good.", Marcus Aurelius

"He is best of all who himself conceiveth all things; Good again is he too who can adopt a good suggestion; But whoso neither of himself conceiveth nor hearing from another Layeth it to heart; - he is a useless man.", Aristotle

"No fear, no distractions, the ability to let that which does not matter, truly slide.", Tyler Durden.

I object to violence because when it appears to do good, the good is only temperary; the evil it does is permanent.", Ghandi

"NEW YORK TIMES! NEW YORK TIMES! Think your better than us, us, US!? U.S, U.S.A, NO WAY! The end.", McGiurk

"Well you never know.", Dylan.

"Soccer isn't about life or death, it's more important than that."

"Not all who are wander are lost.", Tolkien.

"Tell me, I'll go along with you if I can or I'll find somebody to go along with you."
"I'm really, you have no idea of why you are popular or as to how you are popular."
"It's just that I haven't really struggled for that, I don't uh.. it happened, ya know? It happened like anything else happens. Just a happening. You don't try to figure out happenings. You dig happenings, so I'm not even going to talk about it."

"Be content with what you are, and wish not changer; nor dread your last day. Nor long for it.", Marcus Aurelius

We can tell the world of life after death but what the world seems to be wonder about is life before death."

"There is enough for everyone's need but not enough for everyone's greed.", Ghandi

"There is an Eastern fable, told long ago, of a traveller overtaken on a plain by an enraged beast. Escaping from the beast he gets into a dry well, but sees at the bottom of the well a dragon that has opened its jaws to swallow him. And the unfortunate man, not daring to climb out lest he should be destroyed by the enraged beast, and not daring to leap to the bottom of the well lest he should be eaten by the dragon, seizes s twig growing in a crack in the well and clings to it. His hands are growing weaker and he feels he will soon have to resign himself to the destruction that awaits him above or below, but still he clings on. Then he sees that two mice, a black one and a white one, go regularly round and round the stem of the twig to which he is clinging and gnaw at it. And soon the twig itself will snap and he will fall into the dragon's jaws. The traveller sees this and knows that he will inevitably perish; but while still hanging he looks around, sees some drops of honey on the leaves of the twig, reaches them with his tongue and licks them. So I too clung to the twig of life, knowing that the dragon of death was inevitably awaiting me, ready to tear me to pieces; and I could not understand why I had fallen into such torment. I tried to lick the honey which formerly consoled me, but the honey no longer gave me pleasure, and the white and black mice of day and night gnawed at the branch by which I hung. I saw the dragon clearly and the honey no longer tasted sweet. I only saw the unescapable dragon and the mice, and I could not tear my gaze from them. and this is not a fable but the real unanswerable truth intelligible to all.

The deception of the joys of life which formerly allayed my terror of the dragon now no longer deceived me. No matter how often I may be told, "You cannot understand the meaning of life so do not think about it, but live," I can no longer do it: I have already done it too long. I cannot now help seeing day and night going round and bringing me to death. That is all I see, for that alone is true. All else is false.

The two drops of honey which diverted my eyes from the cruel truth longer than the rest: my love of family, and of writing--art as I called it--were no longer sweet to me.", Tolstoy - Confessions

"All the world's a stage,and all the men and women merely players:they have their exits and their entrances;and one man in his time plays many parts..." Shakespeare

"If you're going to be crazy, you have to get paid for it or else you're going to be locked up."
— Hunter S. Thompson

If you have wisdom, offer it. If you do not or it is not the right time nor place, offer tea and your company instead.

They danced down the streets like dingledodies, and I shambled after as I've been doing all my life after people who interest me, because the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones that never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!" -Kerouac, on the road

I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion. -Kerouac, on the road

"Saying 'I notice you're a nerd' is like saying, 'Hey, I notice that you'd rather be intelligent than be stupid, that you'd rather be thoughtful than be vapid, that you believe that there are things that matter more than the arrest record of Lindsay Lohan. Why is that?' In fact, it seems to me that most contemporary insults are pretty lame. Even 'lame' is kind of lame. Saying 'You're lame' is like saying 'You walk with a limp.' Yeah, whatever, so does 50 Cent, and he's done all right for himself."
— John Green

"All I can do is be me, whoever that is.", Dylan

"Before God I am equally wise as I am equally foolish.", an altered Einstein quote.

"When did we see each other face-to-face? Not until you saw into my cracks and I saw into yours. Before that, we were just looking at ideas of each other, like looking at your window shade but never seeing inside. But once the vessel cracks, the light can get in. The light can get out." — John Green

"Youth is counted sweetest by those who are no longer young. Nostalgia is inevitably a yearning for a past that never existed.", Green

“Freethinkers are those who are willing to use their minds without prejudice and without fearing to understand things that clash with their own customs, privileges, or beliefs. This state of mind is not common, but it is essential for right thinking; where it is absent, discussion is apt to become worse than useless.'”, Leo Tolstoy

Fry, "You could've picked a better time to dump the ship, Bender"
Bender, "The moment seemed right. Call me old fashioned, but I like a dump to be as memorable as it is devastating."

Gonna try and remember this one daily.
“Don’t be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying yes begins things. Saying yes is how things grow. Saying yes leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say yes.”
— Stephen Colbert

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be." Douglas Adams

That's all I got.